When Everything Falls Apart
There’s something about tower moments that truly make you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom. Like everything you carefully built, planned for, loved, or tried to hold together suddenly collapses all at once without a notice. They’re uncomfortable, chaotic, emotional, and sometimes deeply isolating experiences, or in my case just downright depressing. But like the saying goes, once you’ve hit the bottom, there’s only one direction left to go and that’s back up.
The hard part is realizing that after a tower moment, you’re usually not rebuilding from where you left off. You’re rebuilding from zero, and honestly? That can feel terrifying to the core. I swear there were nights where all I could think about was what was going on around me and what could have caused this domino effect? What’s going to happen next?
After the tower comes crumbling down, how do you return to the version of your life that once felt stable? When everything familiar has been stripped away? The answer is actually much more simple. You don’t.
Tower moments don’t happen so we can desperately recreate the old version of ourselves. They happen because something was no longer aligned, sustainable, authentic, or meant to continue in the way it was. They teach us that it’s okay to construct something, deconstruct it, fortify it, and rebuild it stronger, wiser, and more stable than before.
That’s exactly what I’ve been going through these past few weeks while I’ve been offline. In almost every aspect of my life, I’ve been rebuilding. Relearning. Letting go. The Moldavite ring truly worked its phoenix like magic and completely turned my life upside down, removing everything that no longer served my highest good, including things and people I desperately wanted to hold onto.
And while it hurt, a lot !, I’m beginning to understand that destruction isn’t always punishment. Sometimes it’s preparation. Now that I’m starting from scratch in my personal life, I also feel deeply called to refresh and restart parts of my craft as well. To learn more. Explore more. Create differently. Grow differently. So expect newness, moving forward, because I’m evolving alongside everything I create. This tower moment came in so swiftly but my gut tells me that it came just when it needed to…
Thank you for always having my back, supporting me, and being so loving and patient with me through every phase, even the messy rebuilding ones.
I love you guppies 🤍 always